Getting help.

I’ve been reading this new kindle book lately called: ‘Make Your Creativity Pay: How to Earn Your Living from the Things You Love to Do’ by Pete Mosley. In one his wise pages, he mentions getting either a coach or mentor and the benefits and differences having one makes.

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I’ve never really thought about having a coach or mentor because I thought first I need to do this alone, and figure it all out by myself, to prove some sort of worthiness, I guess. But I find that I’m naturally connecting with people and actually wanting to get their advice on how to do things, and how they have done things as a step towards their right direction – whether it’s emailing artist friends I know or having a quick cup of coffee and a chat.

Recently I’ve been following illustrator and soul guidance coach Hannah Marie Dudley  through her Facebook group as I actually met her funnily enough through a meetup group for creative coaching! There’s a lot of things that I find really true and can resonate with on a deep level and we have so much in common in terms of our goals and our vibes. We both want to help people and use art to do it and both creatives. She also lives in my neck of the woods, so it’s a good start 🙂

I had a short consultation session with her yesterday I’m positive that this is going to be such a great help. She’s got the drive and experience I need to hold me accountable for things which I lack of course. We will be starting our journey now together and I’m so grateful. I feel like this is meant to be! I even started back meditating again this morning (which was one thing on my list to improve)! Yay!

Check out her Facebook group The Freedom Soul Seekers – ‘Awaken the light within’ It has great tips, thoughts, giveaways and a nice community of like minded people to chat with.

I will let you know how it goes 🙂

Peace x

Be honest now.

Earlier on my Facebook Artist Page post, I made some decisions to free up my time a little more and put quality over quantity rather than do a  million things at once – which I always end up doing – because my ambition usually outweighs my skills. Just keeping it real.

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I had to be really honest with myself, which let’s face it, I’m the eternal idealist so this raw honest discussion with myself does escape my reach at times!

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I recently watched Shareefa Energy talk about her new poem called ‘Duality’ in which she  talks about her relationship with her poetry and being true to yourself and the journey you take.

“Day in, day out we meet people, people are like ‘yeah, I’m cool, I’m okay’ and nobody really comes with an honesty about how they are feeling.”

When talking about her poetry, she goes on to say:

“It’s about allowing people to resonate with your art…just learning to be more authentic with yourself and with each other…”

“…I’m part of this so called conscious poetry scene or whatever it is, and I think a lot time people like to play it out like we’re all just light…but the reality of us as human beings, we’re very complex…I am sometimes light and I am sometimes dark”.

She’s so right!

I’m at a point in my life where I’m trying to establish a style or personal stamp of my artwork that’s true to me and how I am as a person. And it can be kinda daunting at first to really put it out on the line, especially if, like me, you’re still prone to self-criticism, and self-judgement. But then on the flip side, it’s so liberating to finally be like ‘YES, this is me love it or hate it I don’t care!’ There’s a sense of ownership and pride that you’re being real and who ever is interacting positively with you, is genuine.

I also randomly came across this point in a documentary about Eminem of all people where he was commenting on when he first released his debut album ‘Infinite’ and it flopped. He mentions after a lot of style changes and drama going on in his life and talking more about macabre subjects like drug overdoses and not trying to please everyone with what he thinks should be heard, then that’s when people started paying attention to him and taking him more seriously in the hip-hop world:

“It seemed like as soon as I stopped giving a **** about what I was saying, people started giving a ****. It was like a reverse affect, like **** you I don’t care if you like me or not – oh we like you now”.

It’s funny how these things are presenting themselves to me as a sort of signal.

I’ve always been about listening to people’s stories and point of view. And it really does give you motivation and sense of profound depth when Truth is being exposed and presented to you, especially in random ways. I hope I can share my profound truths to, but for now, I’m blogging and trying to show this in my artwork.

 

 

Shareefa Energy is a spoken word artist, poet, international woman and facilitator. She currently works with a charity organisation called Stop Watch giving workshops to the community about knowing your rights when being stopped and searched.

Her new single Duality is out now to embrace. Go to www.shareefaenergy.com or visit her FB page @shareefaenergy and Instagram page @shareefaenergy

 

 

NEWS: She’s going to a new home!

My painting ‘Head in the Clouds’, 2016 has now been sold!

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And it’s actually my first painting to be sold to be honest. Which is why I’m making a big deal. I’m really grateful for the connection and vibe and also for Instagram – let’s keep it real, it opens many conversations for a lot of artists especially as well as other users.

So yes she’s going to a new home. It’s a little bittersweet. I quite liked having her around but I’m glad the home she’s going to is a good place.

Things are going well this month. 😀

Mad appreciation.

I’d like some more of that please universe.

100 days of mini creations!

Today I have decided to challenge myself and set up a #100daysproject on Instagram. I had seen it before through other people’s social media pages especially that of @elstriggs – an AWESOME illustrator who is pregnant with her first child and documenting it on IG.

I feel that when it comes to routine, I’m terrible. Like I literally have to  force my self to brush my teeth everyday. And I got to the point where I’ve seen so many inspirational videos and articles and advice from family and friends to work hard to succeed. I feel I really haven’t been stepping up. I’ve also read that it takes about 60 days to make or break a habit. So WHEN (not if, when- trying to be positive!) I manage to complete this challenge, it will put me in a better headspace to know I can acheive what ever I put my mind to it, even it is a small task!

The challenge: post on IG everyday for 100 days a visual postcard. This could be a drawing, a poem, a story, a painting or whatever really that is like a snapshot of the day or a significant moment that is memorable. To challenge my creativity!

This challenge is mainly just for me. If no-one gives it a like or a damn, I really don’t care! Lol. If it does, thanks 🙂 It’s about proving something to myself, making myself accountable for my art, thickening my skin (so to speak) of the good, the bad and the ugly that I may share. Hopefully it ain’t too ugly. But thats’s life. Sometimes my work may not be where I want it to be but that’s okay. Just move on and keep creating.

 

 

Living that Art life

I have a very vivid memory of me sprawled out on my uncle’s living room floor, with the sun beaming in, and a colouring pencil in my hand, creating away on a piece of paper. My uncle then asks attentively, “So Meron, what do you want to be when you grow up?” I’m assuming to confirm actions of the joyous but relaxed mood I was in.

“Hmm, either an artist or a doctor”

He then asked which one I would choose if I had no choice but to pick one. I hesitated for a bit, but I confidently said artist. I was about 9 or 10 years old at the time so I was pretty aware about different occupational roles. I always remember that memory because I feel like it’s what I am meant to be. And the more I think about it, the more it resonates with me. Usually the question ‘what do you want to be when you grow up?’ is often ignored in later adult life. But lately, I’ve been trying to listen to what my intuition tells me. I think the reason I said both options of an artist or a doctor, is because I want to help people, but I love art and have received more compliments about it then anything else I do.

And it’s so funny because I literally am drawn towards art therapy as a career change! I love psychology and eventually I want to blend the two worlds – art and psychology – together into a nice little world of my  own.

But that art life though!

I’ve only JUST started exposing my art work on social media and online. I’m so bloody defensive of my work, as predictably by my artistic nature, I’m a sensitive soul. Don’t get me wrong, sensitivity is a great thing to have but if your skin isn’t that thick, it’s painful. Luckily, my skin is growing ever more thicker, which is great but I still have some way to go. There’s so many doubts niggling at you like an itchy nose – ‘But I can’t do this!’, ‘I’m not a real artist’, ‘Who’s going to be interested in what I have to show?’, and the classic ‘I’m not good enough’.  Aye aye aye!

I am good, I am kind, I am enough.

I am good, I am kind, I am enough.

I am good, I am kind, I am enough.

(repeat until less stressed)

…That’s better.

It’s my new mantra thing. It isn’t a permanent solution but it’s a good way to centre my emotions. I know I can do this. Live a life more dedicated to practising art and using it to help others. Essentially that’s my life goal. To help others using art. I’m still not sure how exactly but I think along the art therapy route. One thing is for sure – I just to keep creating, stop the self judgement and do it for me. Not to prove anything or to show off but for me.

And in honour of this post, I’ve featured my latest painting/selfie. What do you think is going on?

Detours can be productive…

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‘Blended’ 2010, Mixed Media

A delightful discovery whilst roaming the social media fields, a detour actually.

Introducing April Harrison
I really like the energy that she’s used in this painting- peaceful, solemn, warm and humble. What looks like a  mother almost falling asleep due to the hardships of raising two children, is comforting her children as they are enrapped in their mother’s love in her arms. To me she’s using the term ‘blended’ in the way she has used pattern and texture and the relationship between all of them:intimate. They all seem to have their eyes closed as in the way a person would meditate or pray or just embrace the moment for a few seconds. Or it could be they’re all tired. Either way for me, it’s really humbling to see.

 

 

 

L.A. inspiration

The Californian African American Museum (CAAM) recently had an exhibition called Hard Edged: Geometrical Abstraction and Beyond, which was quite successful in my opinion and probably not highly advertised.  There was a mixed media piece by April Bey which used hair relaxer as part of the narrative closely related to Chris Rock’s ‘Good Hair’ Documentary, which I thought was clever and controversial.

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But some of the artists and art work that I took with me (metaphorically speaking) is that by MICHELLE ROBINSON.

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‘Moon Guardian 2’, 2015, Acrylic & Gold leaf on Canvas by Michelle Robinson

I love the dialogue of colour, texture and references towards the female form, natural hair and all! It really just emanates a wave of positive and deep, powerful, spiritual energies that really appealing to me. It’s very inspiring as it is a style similar to how I work with paints. I would definitely add it to a collection, if I could afford it….one day 🙂

 

 

Big Magic!

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Yes, I admit I live partially in fear and yes its does stop me from doing more amazing things. And Yes I do procrastinate, more than I should.

That’s ‘Step One’ to resolving your issues: admitting you have them. Right?

[Background context] I was massively shy growing up as a child and even still I would take on board too many thoughts about what other people think of me, my actions, my appearance, my identities. Which is why I am drawn to the arts such as painting and writing because it was a safer world than reality. A place that I could escape to express my self with no one looking or judging apart from me!

I’ve always wandered what my purpose in life is and have always been aware of my personal growth questioning the world, contrary to having been absorbed into the recent healing, collective wave of  consciousness.

As it so happens I browsed Amazon and found this beauty! – Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic

–Disclaimer: I haven’t been paid or sponsored to advertise this book—

I just think it’s DOPE. It’s enlightening, humble, witty and very easy to read. Although a point she made in Chapter IV was quite outrageous and disgusting at first. She starts by defining  creative living as…

living a life that is driven more strongly by curiosity than by fear

…and stops the misconception that creativity is just for professional or academic artists (although if you are a visual artist, then that’s great). You  could be a farmer. A builder. A doctor. Or any lifestyle in which you are consistently questioning, making things happen, and not letting fear get in the ratid ass way!

Her chapters are divided into the elements needed, such as ‘Trust’ and ‘Enchantment’ and is full of little anecdotes and living examples of stepping up your game. She has such a casual, conversational style in writing that is neither shallow nor tedious, but just relatable enough so that you really get what she’s saying – I.e. Life is full of paradoxes, and so is creativity. If you embrace courage, playfulness and divinity in your life, and affirm that fear will not take the leading role, big magic WILL happen!

And I agree! 🙂 Here’s to living a creative life and not just burying my creative head in the sand. Argh.

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I also have a YouTube video reviewing the book on my channel Art|Tea|Afrika. Enjoy!

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